Commentaries by Cynthia

“Life’s about changes, nothing stays the same.” This is a line from a country song that I heard years ago and have not forgotten.

Everyone goes through stages, growing from one stage to the next. Although some would argue that the basic personality doesn’t change as time goes on, I’m not sure that I agree. If you believe in God and the soul, then perhaps you also believe that the soul’s purpose is to grow and evolve over this lifetime. And as the soul grows, the personality also shifts.

Looking back at my own life – I can see how I’ve changed over the years. At times I was very wrapped up in my various roles (daughter, friend, wife, mother, employee, political advocate, etc.) Sometimes I was “good” at these roles, sometimes I struggled, and sometimes I failed. Life is learning process, and we’re all a part of it. Those who think they have all the answers will probably wake up one day, as I did, to realize that they don’t know as much as they thought. Although it may feel like an uphill battle, it is from this realization where the real learning begins.

Working with words gives me a certain joy because I’m using the talent that God gave me. I may not be the best writer in the world – but I continue to write because I love it. One reason I almost took my blog down was because I wasn’t sure I was saying what God wanted me to say. Yes, there are political and ethical issues that need to be aired out, but at what point does one cross that line and use words as weapons?

I had a story that I wanted to write, and I still want to write it. Creative endeavors are very good for the soul – and if I write something that offends another person’s viewpoints or ego, then it’s not my problem. But if I say something that “wounds” another person, then I’ll have to answer to God for that.

In the world of birds, the dove is known as the bird of peace, and the hawk is the warrior or fighting bird. At various times, we all have been one or the other, but it is very difficult to be both a dove and a hawk at the same time. Eventually, we must choose… do I want to be more like a dove or more like a hawk?

For right now, I’d rather be a dove. I’m not here to fight anyone – but I am here to write.